I LOVE YOU

i love you, i love youu i freaking love you!!!

those 3 little words that are supposed to mean the whole world! Except im not sure what to believe when i hear them anymore!

I mean is it possible to love me after knowing me for a week?? Do you think telling me that you do will make me drop my draws that much faster?? Cos on the contrary i think it makes me wary of you!!

Love is a decision but to decide that quickly...wow

Mixed Bag!

NYSC is over!!! YAY!!! so im officially done with nysc, im so proud of myself, really didnt think i could make it @ first but this year has made me so tough, i feel like supermans long lost sister!...God has been so great....this past month has just been one thing or the other, im officially an accountant!!( no more foolish exams, studying, nothing), got the job i have been wanting since forever and got a new car...its like im walking on water!


All this good fortune has made me think tho, as in why me, and why now. I have not exactly been the best person as per my religious life...well i had a period in my life when i tried and yeah the man upstairs and i were like buddies...we were getting there, we talked( well i talked, he listened...im sure), but the strange thing is that period was the HARDEST period in my entire life...everything was just not working, i was constantly depressed, it seemed like everyone around me was going places and i was stuck! Thank God that period is over, and im finally where i have always wanted to be, sad thing is i feel so far away from Him i dont even know how to say thanks! Why is everything happening now? Why not when i was always with him???


On another note, i heard a funny story on d radio a while ago...still find it hard 2 believe!!

So , this guy call a radio station:

Guy: well i proposed to my girlfriend of almost 2 years and she said no
Radio Dj: What! how come?
Guy: well she said she's already engaged to someone else
RD: and u say she was your girlfriend?
Guy:Yes, apparently she has been engaged to the guy for a couple of years but he has been in a UK prison for the last 2 years for DRUG related offences, he has 2 more years left on his sentence!

I just screamed...as in u have got to be kidding me!! Are people that crazy? why go out wit someone for a year and a half when u know u are not available in the long-term? And for a guy 2 wnna propose, im assuming the relationship was serious, so what was she thinking? And REALLY, she is engaged 2 someone IN JAIL, for DRUGS, who is gonna be there for the next 2 years?? WOW!! I dont even know how to classify it: LOVE or MADNESS!!


Driving in Lagos is Madness tho, no matter how much u love driving: after an encounter wit the okada people..ud be ready to kill someone i promise ( I know i am...im constantly screaming lik a mad woman...NOOOOOOOOOOO dont scratch my car..if only they could hear me)... And traffic! OMG u dont wanna know, it took me 3hours getting from work 2 my house yesterday and from the looks of things i had better get used to situations lik that!!

Anyway im out!! off to bed again, some elections happening today so no movement..thats fine wit me!! xoxo

Still here

hi....im still here....love blogville and not going anywhere soon...

Past month has been unbelievable....nysc is almost over and with that comes another rouund of madness called final clearance....thats when evryone leaves their suits, heels, poise, professionalism..everything and becomes as crazy as those CMS area boys!!

i had 2 endure over a week of pushing, pulling, bribing,sweating......just 2 get 2 pieces of paper stamped and signed....madness i tell u...and then after that do some other unnecessary things dictated by nysc or else u wont get ur certificate....im still so tired, at least by the end of next week id be done and have a lot more time on my hands to do as i please....

....so yeah im still here...just a break in transmission due to the annoying demands of nysc....and as i have been known 2 lament 2 any soul that cares 2 listen....after this annoying year...nysc CANNOT be scrapped, even if i have 2 petition the govt...why do i have 2 suffer alone????..SORRY ;-)

HYPOCRISY!!!

how many times can 1 person break ur heart before its enough?? Do people get a quota? How many is reasonable...1,2,5,10?? Its so funny that we always have all the answers when the story is about someone else....how can she be so stupid...ehn...God forbid, i cant take that from any guy and all that...yeah i know what we say cos i think im the most vocal when it comes to things like that...just realised im a BIG hypocrite...as in they should flog me in the streets type.

Back to this same "hot sturves" that i blogged about some months ago....he's been in and out of my life since then and as much as im ashamed 2 admit it...im almost falling into the whole cycle again....thank God for the distance cos i cant promise these knickers would have stayed on o!!! Anyway so he said we should give this relationship thing a try, he loves me,( he calls just to tell me he loves me) and i dont even know how to describe how i felt when i heard that cos honestly i'd kinda given up on the whole thing by now and finally gotten over him. He hurt me so so many times that i dont think i can count, and when i think about some of the mean things he did ,i realise that he really couldnt have cared about me and he probably still doesnt. He keeps on telling me to come over, he'd buy my ticket and all that but honestly im scared shitless... i cant deal with another heartbreak but its hard 2 breakaway when u have so much history with one person (2001-2008 is a loooooooooooooong time). I know the sane thing to do but im such a romantic which is actually pure madness to a normal person.

Ok, now you're probably saying, if i know all this then i obviously know what to do right?? Wrong...so wrong!! Im so gone when he comes to him, id rehearse what id say when he calls, but as soon as i hear his voice, i become temporarily dumb! I delete his number which is kind of a moot point since i know it off heart....i blame sex and the city...with Carrie and her Mr BIG!!! Things like that so do not happen in real life...so why cant i just practice what i preach...cos trust me, with my friends im kinda like the relationship counsellor( if only they knew).


Anyway all that is over now( I PROMISE!!), i so deserve a whole lot better than that and im determined not 2 settle for any less...Love is not supposed to hurt or be that difficult!!



On another note entirely....imagine how frustrating it is to be in this naija rainy season without a man....situation is getting very critical o...i coulda sworn i saw cobwebs some days ago...
.....Help needed!! Apply within...with complete CV and full references....experience very important!!

Must it have a title?????????

yeah i know its been a while...IM SORRY!!!! ...my exercise and cutting out of all...(ok stop lyin) some of the crap i eat has paid off!!!! IM BACK...and even better...lol!!...and TIN-TIN(boy) me thinks u have 2 recompute that ur foolish brideprice thingy...as in seriously!!..LOL...ok as y'all might have guessed im a lil excited..


Anyway...ive missed blogville...so many things have happened since i was last here...canbelieve blogville idols has started..and without me 2...how did that happen?? I CAN SING!!( well thats wat my mum says anyway...actually only her...she might be deceivin me come to think of it).


So NYSC is almost over...and boy am i excited...so tired of all the stress of CD( communnity development) days and all..even tho i guess im luckier than most who actually have 2 direct traffic or sweep streets in thah god-awful corper attire!! The only problem now is i have 2 decide what i wanna do next...do i stay here and continue with my job for a few more years..( which i love, the experience is out of this world, d pple are so cool but pay not so fantastic) or do i hawk myself off 2 a great paying job where i might not learn as much and work culture typical naija style( oga, madam crap) or do i just bail out of naija 2 do an MBA?? I guess i still have about a month left 2 figure all that out.



Anyway, i have a problem thst i dont know how 2 fix.... Generally im a fun,friendly, playful( almost 2 playful) person, but for some strange reason, every few months i get into some crappy moods and oh boy am i bitch when i am, i get mad @ everything and everyone and vent every chance i get, i cry for hours and dont know why..im still trying 2 understand why...(or does it happen 2 anyone else), cos during those periods i hurt the people closest 2 me, i shut them out and i cant help it...The latest victim was my mum and i feel so bad..i have apologized for being a total bitch but i know it doesnt mean much when i cant explain why or if it happens again.


Lastly...Has anyone been heartbroken?? How does it feel?? How did it affect your next relationship?? Could u go back to the one who broke your heart? Would it work, or would u find it hard 2 stop going on about how he/she broke your heart?

N:B Id be back soon to update...promise!!

IM NOT FAT....am i??

I so hate exercise!!!

ok maybe im exaggerating a lil bit but the idea of exercise really is not my friend. I could walk the length of Oxford street from Tottenham court road to Marble Arch for hours and then start on the journey to Piccadilly circus through Regent street without breaking a sweat!...but tell me to go to the gym or do some exercise and my body just goes numb, luckily for me all that walking helps my metabolism( or so iv been told anyway) and i never put on weight which was fine by me cos my eating habits....SUCK! im like the queen of junk food...i would eat a sausage and egg bagel from McDs for breakfast, twister from KFC with nuggets and milkshake from Mcds for lunch and only God knows wat for dinner...( i know shocking rite) and never put on weight....My best friend tells me she can see my future and its FAT...I rebuke that everymorning in Jesus name...AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

Obviously moving to Naija kinda cured that habit or shud i say moved it 2 other avenues since now the dudes in TFC call me by name when i visit...and the chick @ the Chicken Republic on Adeola Odeku tells me to pay the following day if she doesnt have change. Unfortunately i dont get to walk as muuch or be as active as i would like to...so u can guess wat happened.
Yes my best friend didnt have to wait to long for the future...her prediction is coming true...and im not liking it one bit.

i knew my jeans were getting snug but hey it shows off my hips and curves so i didnt mind much until the Naija pple and their big, uncouth mouths started....." OMG you have put on weight this babe...as in u r fat o" ," wow see ur hips", " what have you been eating?" and it just goes on and on and on...

So i decided to do something about it...No i didnt join the gym...baby steps please.

Im gonna start running...early in the mornings.

Decided to start on monday 6am...and since im off work this week perfect.

Got up bright and early on monday and i realised something...i dont have workout clothes or shoes!! But there was nothing gonna stop me i was gonna run no matter what. After going through my shoes i found a pair of trainers, sure they r not made for running but they would def work. They are pink tho so i have to coordinate the whole outfit around them.. found white shorts and a pink tank top( now i look like an agbaya going to a childrens party...oh well cant have it all)...was about to leave till i realised...I TOOK OUT MY BRAIDS LAST NITE!! my hair is a complete mess, (and no i do not have any caps in my house im not a cap kinda girl)...my only saving grace is an oversize hoodie that belongs to my bro which is RED!...so now i look like an idiot but im determined....im going running today...1 hour...every one was so happy for me...cheering me on for doing something so healthy.

Running is so much fun...i can do this for ever....well till i almost passed out....how many minutes was i out running??...just 15!!!!!

It took me longer to get ready!!!!...

i guess thats a work out in itself....maybe i should incorporate that into my workout plan....

OMG i so need motivation...i need to lose weight!!

Naija, Old men and Aristos

Naija....uv just got to love it.

So basically i have been in naija for almost a year and i would not trade this for anything...Jokes everyday! Like watching chelsea fans parading along the streets of ikeja just before the champions league match.

So many things can happen only in naija. Its a trip most of the time but one thing i dont think i can ever get my head around is the Aristo thing...or for those who dunno( abeg brush up on naija lingo ah ah) its the trend of all these old men with young chicks.

Its so sad that its seen as acceptable...afterall a man is always gonna be a man right..and thats just what men do..( for my future husband if u r reading this..or ever get to...this is not only grounds 4 divorce..im gonna go Lorena Bobbitt on u..no jokes).

Not sure if it makes me naive or whatever, i really dont care..i just find the whole thing really irritating...why the hell would i wanna start kissing on a dude whos old enuff 2 b my daddy cos he has some money in the bank...abeg chilllllll. Im not trying to sound holier than thou or anything cos trust me im far from that but i think u have to draw the line somewhere sha. Fair play to people who can do that wit a clear conscience..I know i wont like the idea of my dad getting it on with my friend.


The worst part of it is cos im so against the whole thing i've never even learnt the best way to deal with it, without letting the guy know exactly what i think of him and his stupid money...

...How do u tell a client that u dont play like that when ur managers are telling you to keep him sweet( why the hell does Naija not have sexual harassment laws abeg ehn!!!)...Guys please explain..what makes a guy invites his friends daughter out clubbing???

In the course of my complaints to my friends and colleagues about all the daily crap...i heard some stories that honestly are unbelievable...

...Like being appraised by your boss and he's playing with himself

....Your boss literally chasing u around his office

....Going out of town for a meeting with a manager and he makes sure that only one room is booked for u both

God grant me patience cos i can see myself drop kicking some guy in the very near future...God help the fool who admonishes me for beating my elders!!!