Friendly and friendless
Laughing and sad
counsellor and confused
protector and unprotected
Life of the party
hair all brazilianed up
make up on point
Smile amazing, constantly laughing
Mind's a mess, heart's bleeding
Words swirling round my head- dangerous
Driving on the bridge 160km an hour
swerving in and out of traffic, music blasting
tears flowing, make up running
Wishing for something to take this pain away
hoping to hit something so it stops
Not today
Reached my destination, every one's waiting
adjust, every one's watching
Hair and make up fixed
Smile's amazing
Will try again on the drive home
27 November
15 June
A Thin line
Nothing ever stays perfect.
No matter how much you try.
What do you do when u can see everything crashing all around you.
My nightmares have become reality,
My sweat filled nights have come back to haunt me
I now see they were trying to tell me something
What to do?
Pray,pray,pray
Kick,fight, cry, scream?
Remember all the good times and pray its enough to overcome the bad?
And if not...accept that's life and
Love definitely hurts?
I wont run away this time though
We are worth much more than this, I tell myself
We can do anything as long as we're together
We had so many dreams, so many things 2 look 4ward to
Why couldn't everything just remain the way they were
Too many what ifs and why nots.
How do you forget what hurts so much?
No matter how much you try.
What do you do when u can see everything crashing all around you.
My nightmares have become reality,
My sweat filled nights have come back to haunt me
I now see they were trying to tell me something
What to do?
Pray,pray,pray
Kick,fight, cry, scream?
Remember all the good times and pray its enough to overcome the bad?
And if not...accept that's life and
Love definitely hurts?
I wont run away this time though
We are worth much more than this, I tell myself
We can do anything as long as we're together
We had so many dreams, so many things 2 look 4ward to
Why couldn't everything just remain the way they were
Too many what ifs and why nots.
How do you forget what hurts so much?
11 April
forbidden!
What is it with guys and wanting what they cant have....
Sweetie I was single for so long u didn't even throw me a bone, now I'm in a relationship all I ever hear is "baby its you I want, you are so attractive, you are sexy"..N**** please do I look stupid. Trying to mess up my happy home. Even Mr No-Good from my previous posts aint trying to be left out...Dude i was chasing ur silly self for years just praying for you to show me a little love and I got nothing. Now you see me happy, you realise you love me. Wow. If I had known this was the solution I would have found a man years ago.. seems I have been dulling. What is it with guys and wanting they cant have tho? I remember being in uni and spending many a vals day alone or having a pity party with my girlfriends cos well we were single and jand is the worst place for a babe to be naija and single...way too much competition!
Fast forward a few years and here am I beating them off with sticks...only problem is I don't want/need them. It seems like there's been an ad for every single guy that I've ever crushed on, kinda liked, thot was hot/not(for a few) all wanting something or the other. Why now tho...where were they when I almost turned Ann Summers into a grocery shop?
What makes forbidden fruit so desirable? Why am i hotter when i have a man?Why dont I have guys falling over themselves to love me when I'm available to love them back? I spoke to my friends and its the same story even worse for the engaged and married ones while my single friends are bitching that there are no men. Eyin guys kilode o? Can someone tell me wats up?
Sweetie I was single for so long u didn't even throw me a bone, now I'm in a relationship all I ever hear is "baby its you I want, you are so attractive, you are sexy"..N**** please do I look stupid. Trying to mess up my happy home. Even Mr No-Good from my previous posts aint trying to be left out...Dude i was chasing ur silly self for years just praying for you to show me a little love and I got nothing. Now you see me happy, you realise you love me. Wow. If I had known this was the solution I would have found a man years ago.. seems I have been dulling. What is it with guys and wanting they cant have tho? I remember being in uni and spending many a vals day alone or having a pity party with my girlfriends cos well we were single and jand is the worst place for a babe to be naija and single...way too much competition!
Fast forward a few years and here am I beating them off with sticks...only problem is I don't want/need them. It seems like there's been an ad for every single guy that I've ever crushed on, kinda liked, thot was hot/not(for a few) all wanting something or the other. Why now tho...where were they when I almost turned Ann Summers into a grocery shop?
What makes forbidden fruit so desirable? Why am i hotter when i have a man?Why dont I have guys falling over themselves to love me when I'm available to love them back? I spoke to my friends and its the same story even worse for the engaged and married ones while my single friends are bitching that there are no men. Eyin guys kilode o? Can someone tell me wats up?
20 January
heartbroken!
Today: A great day of Hope,change and all great things, if all these positives cant rub off me 2day then Im in big trouble!
Been off this for a LOOOOOONG time...missed yáll, was reading...maybe not commenting much cos i had way 2 much on my plate, but this is a new beginning and as Uncle Barack ( yeah i know i have many cousins out there) quoted: Its time to put away childish things!
What do you do when you know you've met THE ONE...however the people that matter dont even wanna now??
Would u marry someone against ur parents wishes?
Would you try to make them chnage their minds?
Or would you just move on and find someone else??
Im so confused!
I love him ,he loves me....they say we r stupid, we are not thinking with our heads! We'd regret the decision later, they r saving us from a lifetime of misery!
That scares me cos i dont want to have anyone tell me those famous words "I told u so"
what do i do....follow my heart or follow my head?
Im confused people....HELP!!
P.S Happy new year!! ( yeah wateva its still january im not 2 late jare)
On a lighter note....that Jenifa movie is seriously affecting my English o....i almost said "Yels"to a client a few days ago!!
and lets see: As it IS a new year....resolutions abi( lets see how long before i break them)
This year i wanna have a better relationship with God ( God helping me cos i know i cant do it without HIS help o)
SAVE! SAVE! SAVE!! ( no more bags, shoes, anything...ok maybe gold seeing as they r an investment as mumc says)...pls my people dont bring me anything.....IM NOT BUYING...and i don tire for bridesmaid abeg!!!
Try talking less:: i tend to get carried away, not sure my sense of umor is understood by most people
Be good ; -) thats open to any interpretation i like!
Be more ME and not care about what other people think!
Give more...of my time, my money...to people who need it!
Think thats about it......please dont forget im waiting for advice!! xoxo
Been off this for a LOOOOOONG time...missed yáll, was reading...maybe not commenting much cos i had way 2 much on my plate, but this is a new beginning and as Uncle Barack ( yeah i know i have many cousins out there) quoted: Its time to put away childish things!
What do you do when you know you've met THE ONE...however the people that matter dont even wanna now??
Would u marry someone against ur parents wishes?
Would you try to make them chnage their minds?
Or would you just move on and find someone else??
Im so confused!
I love him ,he loves me....they say we r stupid, we are not thinking with our heads! We'd regret the decision later, they r saving us from a lifetime of misery!
That scares me cos i dont want to have anyone tell me those famous words "I told u so"
what do i do....follow my heart or follow my head?
Im confused people....HELP!!
P.S Happy new year!! ( yeah wateva its still january im not 2 late jare)
On a lighter note....that Jenifa movie is seriously affecting my English o....i almost said "Yels"to a client a few days ago!!
and lets see: As it IS a new year....resolutions abi( lets see how long before i break them)
This year i wanna have a better relationship with God ( God helping me cos i know i cant do it without HIS help o)
SAVE! SAVE! SAVE!! ( no more bags, shoes, anything...ok maybe gold seeing as they r an investment as mumc says)...pls my people dont bring me anything.....IM NOT BUYING...and i don tire for bridesmaid abeg!!!
Try talking less:: i tend to get carried away, not sure my sense of umor is understood by most people
Be good ; -) thats open to any interpretation i like!
Be more ME and not care about what other people think!
Give more...of my time, my money...to people who need it!
Think thats about it......please dont forget im waiting for advice!! xoxo
05 January
I LOVE YOU
i love you, i love youu i freaking love you!!!
those 3 little words that are supposed to mean the whole world! Except im not sure what to believe when i hear them anymore!
I mean is it possible to love me after knowing me for a week?? Do you think telling me that you do will make me drop my draws that much faster?? Cos on the contrary i think it makes me wary of you!!
Love is a decision but to decide that quickly...wow
27 September
Mixed Bag!
NYSC is over!!! YAY!!! so im officially done with nysc, im so proud of myself, really didnt think i could make it @ first but this year has made me so tough, i feel like supermans long lost sister!...God has been so great....this past month has just been one thing or the other, im officially an accountant!!( no more foolish exams, studying, nothing), got the job i have been wanting since forever and got a new car...its like im walking on water!
All this good fortune has made me think tho, as in why me, and why now. I have not exactly been the best person as per my religious life...well i had a period in my life when i tried and yeah the man upstairs and i were like buddies...we were getting there, we talked( well i talked, he listened...im sure), but the strange thing is that period was the HARDEST period in my entire life...everything was just not working, i was constantly depressed, it seemed like everyone around me was going places and i was stuck! Thank God that period is over, and im finally where i have always wanted to be, sad thing is i feel so far away from Him i dont even know how to say thanks! Why is everything happening now? Why not when i was always with him???
On another note, i heard a funny story on d radio a while ago...still find it hard 2 believe!!
So , this guy call a radio station:
Guy: well i proposed to my girlfriend of almost 2 years and she said no
Radio Dj: What! how come?
Guy: well she said she's already engaged to someone else
RD: and u say she was your girlfriend?
Guy:Yes, apparently she has been engaged to the guy for a couple of years but he has been in a UK prison for the last 2 years for DRUG related offences, he has 2 more years left on his sentence!
I just screamed...as in u have got to be kidding me!! Are people that crazy? why go out wit someone for a year and a half when u know u are not available in the long-term? And for a guy 2 wnna propose, im assuming the relationship was serious, so what was she thinking? And REALLY, she is engaged 2 someone IN JAIL, for DRUGS, who is gonna be there for the next 2 years?? WOW!! I dont even know how to classify it: LOVE or MADNESS!!
Driving in Lagos is Madness tho, no matter how much u love driving: after an encounter wit the okada people..ud be ready to kill someone i promise ( I know i am...im constantly screaming lik a mad woman...NOOOOOOOOOOO dont scratch my car..if only they could hear me)... And traffic! OMG u dont wanna know, it took me 3hours getting from work 2 my house yesterday and from the looks of things i had better get used to situations lik that!!
Anyway im out!! off to bed again, some elections happening today so no movement..thats fine wit me!! xoxo
All this good fortune has made me think tho, as in why me, and why now. I have not exactly been the best person as per my religious life...well i had a period in my life when i tried and yeah the man upstairs and i were like buddies...we were getting there, we talked( well i talked, he listened...im sure), but the strange thing is that period was the HARDEST period in my entire life...everything was just not working, i was constantly depressed, it seemed like everyone around me was going places and i was stuck! Thank God that period is over, and im finally where i have always wanted to be, sad thing is i feel so far away from Him i dont even know how to say thanks! Why is everything happening now? Why not when i was always with him???
On another note, i heard a funny story on d radio a while ago...still find it hard 2 believe!!
So , this guy call a radio station:
Guy: well i proposed to my girlfriend of almost 2 years and she said no
Radio Dj: What! how come?
Guy: well she said she's already engaged to someone else
RD: and u say she was your girlfriend?
Guy:Yes, apparently she has been engaged to the guy for a couple of years but he has been in a UK prison for the last 2 years for DRUG related offences, he has 2 more years left on his sentence!
I just screamed...as in u have got to be kidding me!! Are people that crazy? why go out wit someone for a year and a half when u know u are not available in the long-term? And for a guy 2 wnna propose, im assuming the relationship was serious, so what was she thinking? And REALLY, she is engaged 2 someone IN JAIL, for DRUGS, who is gonna be there for the next 2 years?? WOW!! I dont even know how to classify it: LOVE or MADNESS!!
Driving in Lagos is Madness tho, no matter how much u love driving: after an encounter wit the okada people..ud be ready to kill someone i promise ( I know i am...im constantly screaming lik a mad woman...NOOOOOOOOOOO dont scratch my car..if only they could hear me)... And traffic! OMG u dont wanna know, it took me 3hours getting from work 2 my house yesterday and from the looks of things i had better get used to situations lik that!!
Anyway im out!! off to bed again, some elections happening today so no movement..thats fine wit me!! xoxo
03 September
Still here
hi....im still here....love blogville and not going anywhere soon...
Past month has been unbelievable....nysc is almost over and with that comes another rouund of madness called final clearance....thats when evryone leaves their suits, heels, poise, professionalism..everything and becomes as crazy as those CMS area boys!!
i had 2 endure over a week of pushing, pulling, bribing,sweating......just 2 get 2 pieces of paper stamped and signed....madness i tell u...and then after that do some other unnecessary things dictated by nysc or else u wont get ur certificate....im still so tired, at least by the end of next week id be done and have a lot more time on my hands to do as i please....
....so yeah im still here...just a break in transmission due to the annoying demands of nysc....and as i have been known 2 lament 2 any soul that cares 2 listen....after this annoying year...nysc CANNOT be scrapped, even if i have 2 petition the govt...why do i have 2 suffer alone????..SORRY ;-)
Past month has been unbelievable....nysc is almost over and with that comes another rouund of madness called final clearance....thats when evryone leaves their suits, heels, poise, professionalism..everything and becomes as crazy as those CMS area boys!!
i had 2 endure over a week of pushing, pulling, bribing,sweating......just 2 get 2 pieces of paper stamped and signed....madness i tell u...and then after that do some other unnecessary things dictated by nysc or else u wont get ur certificate....im still so tired, at least by the end of next week id be done and have a lot more time on my hands to do as i please....
....so yeah im still here...just a break in transmission due to the annoying demands of nysc....and as i have been known 2 lament 2 any soul that cares 2 listen....after this annoying year...nysc CANNOT be scrapped, even if i have 2 petition the govt...why do i have 2 suffer alone????..SORRY ;-)
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